For Today

See, I knew the streak could not last! I started this post on Friday, but things have been so busy I just have not had time to finish it and as time has passed so has my outlook. Here it is, we all struggle almost every day. It is like we all have a rock, and our rocks are all different sizes at different times, and the hill has different obstacles for each of us. There are times when we are doing well and the rock is easy, and others times when we certainly are going backwards further from the top. As we are dealing with our rock we see others with their rock, some have a much bigger rock but they seem to always be moving forward, dealing with their rock just fine. Others have much smaller rocks and continue to go backwards complaining about the size of their rock all the time. We sit and deal with our rock, wishing our rock was smaller easier, wishing we could help all those who have such big rocks and are moving back and wishing those with such little rocks would just be quiet. It occurs to me, that we need to really evaluate what helps us with our rock and see if there is a way we can help others with their rock at the same time.

So in the last week Joe’s truck need huge repairs, and my car dying at the school, I realize more and more that it is not what we have in our lives but who we have that makes life. It is moments like this that I realize how blessed I am. My first call, of course, was to my husband, who was at work, and although he really could not get away was willing to come rescue me. I told him I would be okay because I knew that I had people who would help me accomplish my goals. Stephanie was still in the school volunteering but when I shared my problem with her, she dropped everything. Her plans changed each moment as my plans changed. She would not leave me at the school, except when she thought she had to get my Girl Scout cookies. She finally did need to go get them, but she took me with her because my van was on its way to the doctor, where I knew it would be safe. Jaime, who is not only my co-leader and a very dear friend, was having the same crazy day but as always tried to figure out a way to help out. I told her that we had everything under control, I just had to let her know the van was on its way to her, see she is my car doctor. For me, having own the auto repair shop is like having a trusted doctor. I trust her opinion and never feel I need a second opinion. Knowing that my van is in safe hands that care makes a huge difference for my mental state. Knowing what was wrong before I was finished lunch was amazing. So when I finally got home I had to make Love Day dinner….I will explain that one day, I realized I was supposed to buy vegetables. So I call my mother in law, and explain my problem. Of course she has vegetables and she will sent them home with Joe and Jakey, who always spends Wednesday with Grandma. There were others who were more than willing to step up and help, like Tonya who offered help for each step. Like Lisa who has her own huge rock, but still stopped to get me Dunkin Donuts and was concerned when I told her about what happened at school, that I did not ask for help. Like the swim dad who made a joke, which turned into a conversation, where we both agreed as long as we get to try again tomorrow then things are not so bad.

So how was my rock today? It was huge, including a very upset daughter who had many things go wrong at school. Amazingly enough, despite how big the rock looked today, it was light. The obstacles were huge, but I was blessed that my friends and family were so able and willing to step and help. Today I choose to look at my blessings and try to focus on them. I was able to remain mostly calm despite the pressure I felt. I was able to help Elizabeth to find some peace. Swim helped her to calm down, and then a friend helped her to feel better about everything. For today, I was able to see how blessed I truly am. Today I feel a peace that is helping me believe that God is truly helping me through… For today, there is always tomorrow.